Well, it begins. And I am very nervous about sharing this all on a blog. What if I fail? - anyone reading this will see it all, what will they think? How will I feel? I know I am not a failure, but, I swear, I haven't succeeded at much so far in this lifetime.
So, why am I doing this business? Well, I believe in network marketing for one. Without question what you put into it is what you get out of it. And I really believe in this product and compensation plan. So that satisfies my mind, but what REALLY makes me squirm is my need to do this for my children and my dogs. Natalie has gone above and beyond as a first born. She co-signed on Michael's student loans so that he could go to college (I didn't have the means to do it alone and we won't talk about their dad) AND she bought my house with me, putting the money up for the down payment and closing costs. Well, now, as a newly-wed she wants to focus on her future without all this debt burdening her. SHE should not suffer for her generosity and my short-comings. Every cell in my body wants to show her that her kindness was not taken for granted and that she will be richly rewarded for it. Michael, as he embarks on life as an independent young man, now has thousands of dollars owed in student loans - pretty daunting and dismal, thinking about how long it will take to pay that off. For him I need to show that I am not a failure and that I will not rest until I have worked to pay off these loans, with him, for him, for Natalie; and give both my children the freedom to move confidently into their futures. And for Sylvie and Theo, my sweet dogs that love me unconditionally, nothing stresses me more than the thought that I won't have the money for their veterinary care when they need it. I can't bare the thought that I would have to make decisions based on my financial circumstances and not my heart.
Those are my "why's". The big question that looms in my mind is whether or not I have it in me to fight through the challenging times of growing a business. I am sharing this journey in a blog so that I can't hide or worse, quit.
First goal - get ten REC subscriptions purchased with five of those individuals interested in growing their own Clean Nation movement by August 31, 2012.
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